stochastic mentations

Iphone 3gs FOR SALE.

2010-12-12T13:08:00.002+05:30

Okay, i have a friend that wants to sell off her
Iphone 3gs for a BB.

a 32gb piece, white with the box and accessories that it came with.

anyone interested can contact me on facebook, send me a message. "contact me"

or contact the owner directly +971-55-3399786

The best price being Dhs. 2000/-

random art rage experiments...

2010-09-24T22:16:00.003+05:30

Gah i need more time...

2010-09-24T22:09:00.001+05:30

memories are worthless figments unless there was something positive or useful you gained from it. its pointless excavating memories otherwise. like is there a point discussing a movie after watching it? havent we watched the same sequence of events/ storyline?
and is there a point screaming out "oh.. remember the time we climbed that hill!!" "er yea", "wasnt that awesome" "erm, maybe..."...
why do we humans have the nack to delve into the past?
is it possible to condition oneself into erasing those specific reccuring figments from the past?

2010-09-24T22:08:00.000+05:30

yer all ostentatious... Yes you are...

Production.

2010-07-24T01:51:00.002+05:30

Also ive been working on making music lately.
Made up some random electronic, mellow music. Plus some covers.
And is continuously updated. So keep watching.

Link here.

Odopod- 2

2010-07-24T01:46:00.003+05:30

Yeay, so today my i came up with a sketch which was later featured on the website that helped me create it. Also written up in my previous post.

Heres the link.

and heres the image.

Odopod.

2010-07-20T00:22:00.006+05:30

So i was searching for some more online time-pass. This time it was Odopod.
sketch.odopod.com

and came up with these... (in chronological order)
Link to all images here.

Coraline
Er, they may take time to load... follow the links otherwise.

Richard's Dance

Dance For Life

April
So i got desperate, and thus purchased a graphics tablet after i saw the potential this application had... and thus the following...

Sn00bie

Maw

FLAME :D

2010-05-16T21:44:00.006+05:30

Okay I discovered this artist cum programmer named Peter Blaskovic via one Aalap.

Link here.

Its an intriguing but a fun program where anyone could come up with authentic and awe filled images. Open source it is. Lets you save the images in 1680 x 1050 res.

Try it yourself. here are some of the images i came up with.

Work, Day 1

2010-05-16T21:34:00.004+05:30

8:00
Yes, so i start work today. Woke up at 5 a.m. to catch the bus from Sharjah to the office(6:15).
Currently at the office waiting for boss, who comes in at 9a.m.
During the past few days Ive learned about the basic process that takes place around here.
My immediate boss has decided to place me in every department, just so i learn each process in details, and work with them.
The people here are really nice, that's the MNC culture.

A formal induction i wait for...

8:30
Understanding the SAP system.

10:30
So i learnt a few procedures by some people(i dont think i must name em). Outbound handling and sales orders, back orders, etc.
Currently off to another warehouse at Al Quoz.

1:00
Performed stock checking at the warehouse. SC done on a weekly basis. Stock is manually counted and checked against the quantity in the system.
Got caught by the safety manager on the way back for not wearing seat belts.

2:00
Having lunch, chicken biryani(Company paid).

2:30
Doing nothing, am sleepy.

4:00
learnt more processes critical stocks, etc.

6:30
going home. with some random sales person, i just got acquainted with. :)

Note: yes i prefer privacy as far as naming the people in the company is concerned.

does this make me an emo douche? if it does then may it be...

2009-10-20T23:45:00.001+05:30

this conversation went on with my invisible little friend:
"im stuck between lines, stuck between where to go, or whom to look forward to.
the one reason for me to go to pune is gone away.
what am i to do?
do i stay here in goa? do i go to dubai? how must i pass on this one year by?
well, for one, im gonna be waiting fer her to come back..
but till then what am i to do?
and what assurance do i have that she will come back to india?
what if she settles there? what if she gets a job, or what if she ends up in rajkot? what if her parents are already deciding upon getting her married and stuff (which they already seem to be doing)?
my whole life seems to hang on to her actions...
i have nothing else to do, or feel like doing...
and i in no ways want to disappoint her..."

when will this end?

2008-10-04T01:49:00.003+05:30

(this conversation took place between me and a friend "rupin", and i felt like copying it here)

ill tell you something, this always happens to me.. whenever something does not feel right, i can sense its going to happen. . i know it sounds crappy but i tell you this is how i feel, and this is not part of any depression or any sort of that bull shit. SOMETHING BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN, AND ITS STRONGER THAN EVER, AND ITS GOING TO HAPPEN TO SOMEONE OR SOMETHING VERY CLOSE TO ME. im weary, scared, and conscious.

i believe there's a lot of secrecy among us

things that are happening and things people are keeping from us, they're testing us ill tell you...

i wish i could smoke up, id write more..

today was the worst day of my life, and theres more to come,

i notice things.

and tend to open my mouth, but now my mouth opens only to selected people.

i know you will have lots to say when you wake up but what the fuck, im typing whats in my head..

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Now playing: Chroma Key - Another Permanent Address
via FoxyTunes

it's a little bit funny, this feeling inside...

2008-08-18T04:10:00.003+05:30

exhausting, yes thats what life has become now...

more monotonicity, egh...

coming up... exams...

Trusha Avlani

2008-06-30T04:07:00.003+05:30

her face, so pale,
her beauty, so mesmerising,
her eyes, so confusing,
her hands, in mine,
i don't know why, but i,
picture her in white, the same when we unite,
white, as the whitest lily on a stream,
so illogical, yet so valiant,
she lies, to hide it inside,
i still try, but in vain,
her silhouette, against a lamp in a dark room,
burns your heart inside,
hnykins is i, pixy is she,
she threatens you, but always comes back,
is she trifling? i cannot say,
cause im lost, in those locks...
to her i can be, like the great oak tree,
waiting patiently, for we will unite,
there is no place i cannot go, my heart is heavy but does it show?
i cannot go on, i want to run,
she's got me confused...
but i hang, i hang on...

Bankruptcy

2008-02-23T01:25:00.002+05:30

agh
am broke, once again... not a single penny, waaah

reason(s) for why i am broke,

1. trip to goa.
2. the stay in goa cost me 1000 bucks, even though i have a place of me own there, waaaaa
3. the expensive food we had, blew 1000 bucks a day for food,
4. lastly the tattoo on my left arm, the impulsive idea, agh, all of us got the tattoo in the end...

Massaging.

2007-12-18T02:24:00.001+05:30

Yea,
ive been learning a few new techniques to massaging.
I used to massage my dad as an experiment, who knows, might turn into a profession someday, :P
Ive experimented on many friends, in school, college, they all seemed to like it.
So now ive recently been exploring the different techniques to massaging and ill try to get paid while im at it,:P.

agh

2007-12-18T02:20:00.002+05:30

My granparents golden jubilee or whatever its called is in february.
i have a problem, ...again..

OUR college will be hosting the annual college fest called UNIFY in
february, and ill be having my internals fer this semester in or around
that time.

ive been playing frozen throne, DOTA, these days, missed my classes too, agh this is irritating.
I have to secure 90% attendance, ...somehow.

oh yea, went to mood- i in dec, was FUN...

mood-i, goa crisis...

2007-12-18T02:17:00.001+05:30

Ah the joyful christmas season has arrived,
guess its going to be a hard decision for me though this time.

Every year theres this college event in mumbai, called MOOD INDIGO or mood-i in short.
Last year being my first year in college, i skipped the event, heard from classmates it was FUN.
i was ready to attend this event this year. But theres a problem.

I have to meet my grand parents for christmas, this might be the last time i might ever see my grand dad alive.
:( yea i know, blah blah blah,
but i like him,
i was thinking id go to Goa and spend time with the family there, for christmas as well as new-years.
christmas is on the 25th, yes im sure all of us know that, and mood-i takes place between the 26th to the 29th. OUCH

now im battling over the thought of where to go, goa or mood-i.

my minds more fixed upon going to mood-i.

Lets see what happens.

Ive recently been listening to this song called xerces by Deftones, this is one song i dont mind listening to continuously in loops for the whole day.
Am also exploring music by Radiohead, incubus, etc.//

wheres all the multiplayer gaming....

2007-11-15T04:31:00.000+05:30

multiplayer gaming...

this is what we love doing most,
battlefield2, unreal tournament, age of mythology, DOTA(defense of the ancients), F.E.A.R, etc,
Rize 7 is just a call away.
We've gotten so addicted to this phenomenon, we'd famish and save up those bucks we need to game.
This had become our every weekend routine.
There are those times when we had very few (around 3-4) players around and did nothing more than take screenshots of stuff,stunts, etc.

eg.

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Now playing: The Perishers - Pills
via FoxyTunes

Cooking.? agh what do i say?

2007-10-22T04:01:00.000+05:30

Weirdly i love to cook. Id try to make up some random dish and try to make it as pleasing as possible to all munchers.
Just today we went to a friends place named Rupin, he kinda was diffident and unsure of whether his mother would shout at him if the dish we were preparing would turn out pathetic. It turned out amazing. I made a salad, and with a little help from rupin too. His mom asked me for the recipe, which was really easy. This id say is what happens when you are like unsure if you are going to accomplish what you started, but in the end you turn out to do something much better.

The same happened when earlier when another friend trusted me not at all. kept cursing me and taunting me that id kill him of food poisoning. I have no means to cook at my place, or i wouldve been exploring the vastness of this field "COOKING". whatever....
What happened here was that there was this one fella (driv)who actually trusted me temporarily (he too unsure about my skill) , and thought what the hell; lets give it a try. both of us enjoyed the yummy meal i prepared. I prepared everything from appetizers and salads to the main course, only thing missing was the dessert. it was fun cooking that day...
Later on that night when the people who demeaned me came in, they realized what they missed. I invited them to join me earlier but they had refused. I had fun. Also i must point out cooking at that time a fulminant mood i got into. An impulse kinda idea that came upon me all of a sudden. gaah... i so wanna go back home...

procrastination is bad, leads to trouble... grr

2007-10-22T03:06:00.000+05:30

In groups usually we suck at coming up with decisions whenever we are like bored n need some excitement. We tend to waste so much f time in these situations. Usually some people tend to get lazy and also hinder other peoples decisions.
Gaah, am feeling so sick right now, head spinning, feel like doing something exhilarating, adventurous, but the more i think the more my head starts spinning. Got a cold. Gaah.
Don't we all get that feeling when we want something or someone but someone beats us to it. Some may cal it jealousy.
My lips get so badly chapped in this season i cant f***in control it. I look so pathetic at this time. Grr.
After my accident at times it becomes hard to remember certain things. The worst was when i could not remember right after my accident how much money i owed my old room mate named 'sashi'. Gaah. Thankfully what i sorta remember was exactly wat i had saved in my accounts on my laptop. I'm in my third year. I cant remember what i studied in my internals. Seriously. Its like if i go through the notes i feel yes I've done tis b4, even if i had gone through it just yesterday. I had a blood clot when i had the accident. Ok when i heard abt this i too was petrified. I was supposed to recheck or rescan my head, but i guess procrastination got to me.

it happened again. we currently are three ppl staying at this place (would not want to call it crappy), the problem was we had to look for a new room mate to stay along with us cause one of the present three (angad) was to leave at the end of this month. Gaah we kept postponing the lookout for a new room mate. We were also thinking of staying only the two of us (me an Samsundar), will be able to personalize and clear or clean the place up. Once angad's gone the cats and his stuff will go too. so more space, not that im accusing him of stealing my space or shit, but the thing is he cant take care of his surroundings. Sadly ive noticed he hardly indulges in clearing the room up or even cleaning it. Says he's been to a boarding school, but shows no values hes learnt there at all. but whatever. Hes fun. don't want to put him down or anything.
Another problem is that i was supposed to freeze my gym (endurance) account since like long before my exams started. Gaah, wasnt able to do it. Am wasting time and money. sheesh...
I will be goin back home tomorrow, at 3 is the flight. At this point i never want to come back to pune again(weirdly). Ive experienced the improbable, had many adventures, made new friends etc, but what the hell, who thinks were all gonna be together for more than after we finish our graduation?

One thing i learnt is if you procrastinate what you have to do now, your surely gonna repent it. Again id like to refer to what happened to me again because ef my laziness. I have to fly out tomorrow back to Dubai. The bad news is that i haven't confirmed my ticket, if that's at all important. But what the hell.
I also had to talk to my landlord regarding how me and samsundar(senior) only wanted to stay, no third person. grr. That too got too late i guess. haven't spoken to him yet.

I keep setting reminders, but i guess they don't help persons like me. Gaah. Have to come up with a new resolution i guess for the next year, or maybe now itself...

right now..

2007-10-21T12:39:00.000+05:30

Ok this is my first time blogging..(Whatever..)

Here I go..

There are times when we all suddenly get disconnected from what we currently are doing and go into this different dimension. To others yes it may seem like oneirism or reverie or daydreaming, but like me im sure many people at times think of randomness. Numerous thoughts flood your head and you begin to mull over certain thoughts for some time.

Well something like this is happening to me at the moment, though Im not riveting on that much. Or atleast it was happening. Gaah.

There are times when we all feel, ok wait, its not important to satisfy or make happy ourselves, but it is important to gratify others. This feeling is what gets us trapped. We keep getting confused. We don’t know how to please people we like the most. And when we try, we try to make it perfect, whatever it may be. And then people like you. Those short moments of happiness is what we all want.

This I guess is all I could come up with right now.. Will post more later..