when will this end?

(this conversation took place between me and a friend "rupin", and i felt like copying it here)

ill tell you something, this always happens to me.. whenever something does not feel right, i can sense its going to happen. . i know it sounds crappy but i tell you this is how i feel, and this is not part of any depression or any sort of that bull shit. SOMETHING BAD IS GOING TO HAPPEN, AND ITS STRONGER THAN EVER, AND ITS GOING TO HAPPEN TO SOMEONE OR SOMETHING VERY CLOSE TO ME. im weary, scared, and conscious.

i believe there's a lot of secrecy among us

things that are happening and things people are keeping from us, they're testing us ill tell you...

i wish i could smoke up, id write more..

today was the worst day of my life, and theres more to come,

i notice things.

and tend to open my mouth, but now my mouth opens only to selected people.

i know you will have lots to say when you wake up but what the fuck, im typing whats in my head..


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it's a little bit funny, this feeling inside...

exhausting, yes thats what life has become now...

more monotonicity, egh...

coming up... exams...

x

her face, so pale,
her beauty, so mesmerising,
her eyes, so confusing,
her hands, in mine,
i don't know why, but i,
picture her in white, the same when we unite,
white, as the whitest lily on a stream,
so illogical, yet so valiant,
she lies, to hide it inside,
i still try, but in vain,
her silhouette, against a lamp in a dark room,
burns your heart inside,
hnykins is i, pixy is she,
she threatens you, but always comes back,
is she trifling? i cannot say,
cause im lost, in those locks...
to her i can be, like the great oak tree,
waiting patiently, for we will unite,
there is no place i cannot go, my heart is heavy but does it show?
i cannot go on, i want to run,
she's got me confused...
but i hang, i hang on...

Bankruptcy

agh
am broke, once again... not a single penny, waaah

reason(s) for why i am broke,

1. trip to goa.
2. the stay in goa cost me 1000 bucks, even though i have a place of me own there, waaaaa
3. the expensive food we had, blew 1000 bucks a day for food,
4. lastly the tattoo on my left arm, the impulsive idea, agh, all of us got the tattoo in the end...